Tuesday, April 07, 2009
man.. i'm so sick with the all the dramas.
Maybe this is why I would rather spend my day offs at home watching drama in front of the laptop, at the comfort of my own bed. Unchallenging but I very much prefer it this way.
I have so many complaints about my job. dont get me wrong. I totally love what im doing. but i'm so confused with the people that I work with.
My boss puts in so much expectations in each and everyone of us. which, i totally dont mind. Even though I dont take criticisms very well, I understand that with expectations and critisisms, can I then learn a whole lot more.
My co-workers, I really dont know. Sometimes I feel its better to not do so well (not saying I am doing well. I made lots of mistakes too), lest they feel as though i'm a threat to them. Though I personally have no intention of doing better than them in front of my boss. I just wanna put in my 100% (or even higher) to everything that I do, so I wont dissapoint myself for that matter. I dont wanna seem as though I am being competitive with the rest of the co workers. I am competitive with myself. I gave myself a standard to meet, and am doing the best I can to accomplish that. Sigh, if only things were way more simple. And there's just this someone among us that is being a total stuck up to the boss and wld report to her anything that is being discussed during our lunch break. And it seems like everyone is doubting everyone else. Seriously, who can you trust? I cant even prove myself to them that I am not the one who's doing all these. I feel so goddamn helpless ='( and i dont like to be stuck in this position.
gosh, i'm really praying for happiness, and less drama, on my birthday. I dont need anything else but that.
valen (4/07/2009 02:09:00 AM)