Wednesday, December 03, 2008
tomorrow marks the last day of my life in college...(final exams not over yet though)
it has been one hell of a rollercoaster ride. especially in this last semester, extreme rollercoaster that lasted for too long. I get to experience working with a bunch of people with conflicting interests, people who dont give a shit about school work (and have me do EVERYTHING from beginning to end of project) and people who can't even write one damn good sentence in English language (beleive me, alot still exist in USC)
but to think of all these, they have in fact help me grow. I must say, in the most modest sounding way, that I have done well, thus far. I have learnt to accept others' flaws and imperfections. I have learnt to never give up, NEVER. no matter how much work I've got on my back, I will still put in my 101% to complete all those assignments, even if it means forgoing all sleep and staying up for couple of nights. it doesnt matter if at the end of the day I dont get the grades that I hoped for. I am proud of myself... for achieving the best that I would expect myself to give.
I havent start applying for a job yet. I am not being lazy. I am just.. unsure with myself. hah! figure that out youself. I am... I dont even know why did I even do business. I dont like business. I wanna work in a non profit organization. earn a decent salary... and be happy with the help that I can offer to others. But then again, can a decent salary cover all my expenses?
that aside. i feel so fucking stupid today ='(
(just today, i promise)
dibanting ama kiang aja langsung gk bs jawab apa2. totally like a hermit. I hid in my shell... I knew that wasnt what i wanted but then i became all that speechless when he said those few harsh words. 'extortion' felicia said. I cannot deal with cara2 pemerasan like that. felicia was disappointed. valine was too. mum, as usual, gave in and accepted me the way that I have always been. dad is clueless. I need assurance yet noone can very well help me with that.
nuff' said. im going temple tomorrow. I need to find my inner peace. Ohm.
valen (12/03/2008 07:12:00 PM)