Tuesday, March 22, 2005
After the posting is out,
I couldnt get back to sleep.
Slept around 0500hrs last night then woke up at 0745hrs to check abt the posting.
Couldnt get back to sleep.
Guess I have to accept the hard cold fact tt I'm back to Yj again.
Not tt I dont want.
As ive said before, the teachers put me off.
they're nt as warm as the AJ teachers.
My Gp teacher called me just now.
Ms Ng: hey valencia. this is ms ng.
Me: huh? who's this? which ms ng?
Ms Ng: see! you dont remember me anymore.
me:oh! I remember! gp teacher. yar why?
Ms Ng: okay. so you'll be coming back to Yj right.
Me: [can i say no?] yar.
Ms Ng: so I want you to come for all your tutorials diligently from tomorrow onwards.
Me: You mean there's no orientation for me?
Ms Ng: not for you. you'll attend lessons.
Me: SO what time will I end lesson tom?
Ms Ng: maybe abt 4. more or less.
Me: okay [at tt time, I was alr planning of how to get away even by 4 to go Aj to train]
She had to call me up and tell me to attend lessons.
How saddening.
When everyone is able to have fun and making new friends during orientation,
I'll be studying instead.
On the first day of school!
Went out with Chow today.
wanted to buy alot of sportswear nstuff.
but everything seems to have got sth to do with AJ.
the grey shoes tt I want. the shoebag.
We were walking and stonning at the same time throughout the day.
I connect everything I see to Aj.
The table tt we sat in macs, was grey
The seats were grey
the pillars beside them were grey
Evertyhing seemed grey to me today.
Just like how grey Aj uniform is.
'series of unfortunate events which makes hweiyun quite sad:
1. valen! don't worry bout everything. i'll do everything in my capacity to help you get into AJC ok? i'll try and talk to mr koh about this. i still love you! you're still cute! haha.. and i'm sure timon will miss you too. hahah.. don't think too much!'
Hwei Yun wrote this in her blog.
sigh..
somehow it made me feel even worse.
The nicer someone treats you, the worse you feel kind of thing?
I'm so afraid I cant get in Aj.
When I couldnt get back to slee this morn afetr checking the posting results,
I started writing diary.
And the last time I actually wrote was august last yr.
see, I was a happy girl for 7 mths.
hahaha!!!
No entry in my diary means I've got nth to worry abt.
okay,
I'll have to be a happy girl soon again! =D
valen (3/22/2005 12:32:00 AM)